Friday, February 27, 2009

Looking for the Sunshine in My Soul

It seems silly to even mention it, but it's my blog and I'll cry if I want to! I've had a tough week. The dumbest part is there is really NO reason for me to have been bummed. All is well in my life. There are SO many others who are struggling with a multitude of trials and I couldn't be more blessed of the Lord. But yet I spent a good part of this week really not feeling like myself. I have been blessed with a "sunny disposition" and a mild temperament. I like to think I am laid back and just go with the flow. This weak I was very anxious, even scared and oddly emotional. All I can think of for the change is that I have recently started on thyroid medication. All the women in my family have faulty thyroids and I always knew it was only a matter of time until I would be on meds. My first abnormal test was in college and since having the boys it has really gone down hill. In the last little while it was really bothering me--always being cold and tired, being so incredibly forgetful, and especially the inability to lose weight. So yea for me when the blood test finally proved what I have known for a while and my doctor got me a prescription. I can't believe how not tired I am. It is actually truly weird for me to not be tired all the time. I just adjusted to that being how it is and figured working the hours I do and chasing my kids would make anyone tired. And I still think it would but I was not always a tired person. The last couple of days I have woken up (before my kids!) after 8 hours of sleep just feeling great. Not 10+ hours later still tired and waiting for my 3 hour nap. I also have warm toes, so crazy and have lost nearly 10 lbs in 2 weeks. Definitely a welcome change. But then this week out of the blue came the blues. I wonder if it is simply PMS and it has been so long since I have had normal hormones I have forgotten how it is. Or it is just an adjustment as my hormones kick back in and do their jobs. It only makes sense that when your hormones have been out of whack for many years when they begin to regulate there will be some growing pains. But I am sick of them and hope they pass quickly, because it really is not me. And I want my sunshine back.

So I'll talk about my little sunshines! Wednesday was bright and beautiful here so we trekked to the park. Here's the little men on their scooters, my did that block walk take forever!

Climbing away, oh so happy to be in the sun, me too!
Not without its consequences though, see the blue spot above Big D's eye, Carter accidentally ran into him and he fell and hit a stair. I was afraid we'd have another black eye, but it seems to be healing okay now.

Carter managed some sand rash on his face as well, from falling while climbing. We also made a visit to my nieces this week as well as the Dino museum (yes again!).
Today we had a play day, staying in our jammies until noon, making cupcakes and sail boats.

I also, yes I am sucker, let the boys ride their bikes in the house since it was snowing today.

I love my Davis!

I like this smile a lot!

Brothers, holding hands while riding bikes, in the house, in their jammies. Oh my.
I think that is about it for our week. Tomorrow I hope to make a trip to either the zoo or the children's museum depending on the weather. I hope you are all well wherever you are and know how much I appreciate your friendship. Much love!


The Halls said...

My mom has thyroid problems too. I get my levels checked yearly and so far so good. Hope you feel like yourself again soon! Now I am going to have, Sunshine in You're Soul, stuck in my head.

Scott and Jillian said...

That's awesome that you've been able to lose so much weight so quickly! I hope the blues subside soon & that they are an indicator of working hormones! I seriously need to get my hormone levels checked again. I know they are way out of whack, but I just haven't called up a doc here in AZ yet.

lindsey said...

Hi. I just joined the UVMOM Forum and saw that you posted your blog address. I hope it's okay if I add you to my blog and check it out every once in awhile. My blog is
Hope we can get to know each other!

Anonymous said...

Man Heidi what a week it was for you! I sincerely hope that things get better soon PMS or not. The boys are SO cute! I really wish that we were there so that Dylan could ride his scooter with the boys. They could be the first ever scooter gang of Lehi! I look forward to hearing the Chihuahua song soon. When will you be at M and D's?